Hormones can create crazy, glorious, maddening, joyous, irritating, and pretty much any other descriptive feelings in a woman. Hormones were God made and God given to every female on this planet and without them, we simply would not be wo-man. But WOW can they be a challenge for a chill, Jesus loving, wanna be kind, girl like me!
I find the biggest struggle is internal. On the outside, I can be cool as a cucumber, but on the inside the urge to rip, bite or smack your head off is very real. Please tell me I am not the only one who feels this way! This internal struggle is not constant, or every day...thank You Jesus. But every month it comes...I call it "the switch." I can literally feel it. Switch. It's on. Ok Elizabeth...breathe and go with the flow. Yesterday I knew the switch had been turned on when Tracie calls me and I hear her voice and start crying. One of my own kind!! She knows me! She knows who I really am! She loves me! See the dramaticism? It's scary.
My husband is the only one who probably really notices "the switch." I know this because he, in a very cautious and sweet tone, will say "Honey...are you feeling ok?" Bless his heart. Let me say that again...bless...his...heart.
All you Jesus loving girls like me...what are we to do? Oh! Believe me...I am applying my hormone cream and eating well and trying to move this "feels older than it is body" of mine. But what about the feelings? The overwhelming emotions at times? The tiredness? The "I don't want to be nice right now" struggle?
I think the answer, like most answers, is Jesus. He is all I need in this season of life. He is enough to help me be who I want to be, no matter the struggle going on inside my heart and emotions.
Jesus is bigger than my hormones. Again...Jesus is bigger than my hormones!
This morning in prayer I found myself praying that the presence of Jesus, the Holy Spirit Himself, would come out as kindness, love, patience, gentleness, and self-control through me. I realized I CAN be all these things BECAUSE Jesus is all these things and HE LIVES INSIDE OF ME.
Hormones and all, I can be like Jesus. Every day. Even on "the switch is on" days. Because on those days, Jesus rises up inside of me...why? Because He loves me.
And guess what?
He loves you too.